Four Hours In Lola's House: Of Exes and Telenovelas
I spent 4 hours in Nanay's house, hoping to get some peace and quiet so I can finish studying Kines (so I haven't finished it, sue me!) finally. Shempre ang sagwa ng napili kong oras!
Kasi naman, mega-overtime ako kanina sa Pedia. I finished at around 7pm na. Uber overtime na yun no, considering that 4:30 ang official time out ng Pedia people!
Anyway, I got to Nanay's at 7:45pm and we had dinner at 8pm while some God-forsaken telenovela (I think it's that one with Tonton and Chin-chin) played on TV. Oks lang...kumakain naman ako so kayang-kaya ko pa siya ma-ignore. After that, I sat down at the foyer while I studied. Telenovela after telenovela started parading in front of my eyes and began to assault my hapless brain. Oh agony! I even saw an ill-acting (can one even call that crap "acting"?!?) Pierre Paolo trying to convince his older sister not to accept some guy as their dad.
Oh goodness. Why oh why do Filipinos put up with this crap? It practically insults the viewer's intelligence. I mean, hello! Who the FUCK would put up with a Cruella-De-Ville-ish mother in law who splats her face into a creme-frosted cake after she overhears that girl telling her husband that she wants to move out and live on their own?!? And what idiot husband would not even investigate if his wife's claims were true (nagsumbong na once si Cecilia, if I remember correctly)...and what infinitely DAFT b*tch would continually be a martyr and suffer her mother-in-law's schizo-affective attacks for the "love" of her husband?! COME ON PEOPLE! This is CRAP! (ooh...I'm beginning to sound like a poster with a million nicks, many times banned and many times reborn! Hwahahaha!)
I ended up leaving earlier than planned. My brain and my intelligence (whatever's left of it anyway) could no longer tolerate being lambasted and stepped on. Thank God walang Kristine Hermosa flick kanina. No offense to her fans but her loveteam with Echo Rosales is getting so...blah. And she is such a lousy actress, I swear. She's Jacklyn Jose- unemotional without Jacklyn's charm and screen presence. Ladidah...BUT it doesn't change the fact that Echo's kinda cute. Harharhar.
In those four hours, I got to finish only three chapters (wonder of wonders that I even finished ONE, given the crap the TV was spouting) and regressed into my "other" thoughts.
I saw pictures of his ex the other day. Let's not name names...I would not appreciate it if she turns out to be an avid fan of my blog (as some of my friends are...I should put a blurb page here...so my friends can rave "ang galing ng blog mo! Makulit at makulay, parang ikaw!" and other pambobolas! hehehe...) and I get a text from her saying she doesn't like the way she was described in my blog (in which case, I would text back "Sorry, wrong number" Wahahahaha...bad bad ko!) and would like a formal letter of apology to be published in my blog.
Oh, going back to his ex, I saw her pictures the other day. Damn hell, she's friggin' cute! I swear, she's like a little kid... all sweet and innocent with that big toothy grin. And her baby pics...she WAS so adorable! In fact, I might even LOVE her...except for two things: she's my beloved's ex (and I am not very good with my bf's exes...hehehe...) and well...let's just say her pysche leaves something to be desired. Oh let's leave it at that. My "other" thoughts have nothing to do with her cuteness (but damn, she IS cute...the sort of cute that makes me "gigil"...like Nancy Castiglione) or her warped psyche. It has EVERYTHING to do with MY warped pysche.
Let's just say that I am going through the "Seventh Week Itch". If couples have a "Seven-Year Itch", I have my "Seventh Week Itch". It's when I begin to disect, resect, digest and molest (WHAT?!?) every detail of my current relationship and mull over them over several cups of coffee and packs of cigarettes (well, I used to but not this time. I've quit) all night and into the wee hours of cock-a-doodle-doo.
And in my hours of thinking, I unearthed some...errr...interesting details.
One, he is my only boyfriend who is only a few months older than I am. Ergo, we are basically the same age. That's one big surprise for me, which my friend Vero remimded me of. In one of our YM conversations, she said: "knowing you, you probably went for someone way older than you are." Funny how I do tend toward older guys. No wonder Dada was surprised to know how old he was. To quote my dear gurlfriend: "WHAT?!?" Hehehe...
Two, he hasn't changed much since our first day as a couple. He still texts a lot, calls a lot (kahit nagagalit ako na nasasayang lang ang load niya), he still misses me as much as he did before. He still HAS to see me everyday (or every other day, which is about as much as he can take...sapilitan na yung 2 days) and he still thinks of me MOST of the time (come on, one doesn't think of one's partner 24/7. Let's be realistic here!)...or so he claims.
Three, we hang out a lot at my house...which NEVER happened with past bf's for some reason or another.
Four, his ex...hmmm...let's get to that later.
Bakit ba napaka-significant sa akin ng 7-week mark?
Kasi ganito: 8 weeks = 2 months. and 2 months is the duration (give or take a couple more weeks) of my past two relationships (which I do not want to go into in detail as of the moment, thank you very much!), unfortunately. Therefore, I tend to be phobic of the 7th and 8th week as the 7th week is the Week of Anticipation (will we break up or not, is it worth going on or not? Magkakaiwanan nanaman ba?) and 8th week is Judgement Week. Oh hell, call me paranoid, schizo, psycho (I do BEG to disagree on this one, though...hehehe...) and whatever the hell you want but it is an established fact that I can never breathe easy until the 8th week has passed without notable events.
Although medyo fallacious nga ang 8th-week relaxation ko kasi things get f*cked up AFTER the 8th week has passed (one messed up 5 days after 8th week and the other at 13 days post) and not on 8th week itself.
Well, I got that covered this time. 9th week is Bet Week. It's one bet I would LOVE to lose. The bet goes: By this day (corresponding to 9th week), he would have left me. And he bets he'd still be around. Not only for Week 9...but until Week 10,000. Hahahaha!
So, that aside, let's go to his ex. I think I'll pass on the descriptions. Suffice it to say... he had wanted out during the last few months of it. And suffice it to say that I do not understand how he put up with it...and suffice it to say that, indeed, her psyche left a lot more to be desired. But as I said, let's not go there.
Let's just put it this way: I try hard not to be like his ex. I try not to make the same mistakes his ex made. Why? Maybe coz I want to increase my chances of losing the bet? Maybe because I just don't want anything in me to be related to (in my sister's words "maihambing"...ek!) his ex. Not that I hate her (and not that I love her either...although nang-gigigil talaga ako sa kanya...she's so CUTE!) nor do I hate him for putting up with her. Hey, to each his own. And I'm definitely not going to make his putting up with her an issue between the two of us. Dahil, unang una, tapos na yun. Past is past. Let's not breathe life into moldy skeletons. Pangalawa, what the hell for? What a waste of energy. I might as well put that energy into creative use, koratch?
But then again, I'm nothing like his ex! Basta...kung ano ako, hindi ganun yung ex niya. Teka...mali. Kung ano yung ex niya, hindi ako ganun. Tama na ba? Ah basta! Let's leave it at this: I do not want to repeat HER mistakes. I want to learn from them.
So what's the point of me writing all this ex-talk in my blog. EH GUSTO KO EH! PAKI MO BA?!?!
Probe Team Commentary:I was laughing my head off watching Probe's Anniversary Special. They made them sell TAHO! Tapos dirty ice cream. At the height of Chedeng! Woohoo! Two years ago naman, pina-akyat sila sa Samal. Umiyak nga si Bernadette dun eh...ayaw na daw niya umakyat sa bundok. Di na daw niya kaya! Ang kulit kulit ni Love! Ang ingay ingay niya magbenta ng taho. Buti pa siya marunong mag-scoop ng taho...she also knows how to scoop out the water. Sina Che-che naman, old-fashioned way. Naglibot talaga. Eh sa Divisoria yun...andaming tao! My goodness! Ang galing nila! Sina Bernadette naman, sales talk! Ang galing, charm charm! Hehehe... Tapos nungnatapos sila, hindi sila kumain dun sa kainan ng halo-halo at pusit-palabok sa Divisoria Mall. Sayang di nila alam eh. Hehehe...
Eniwei, chili con carne, nasan na ba aketch? Hayun...my "other" thoughts. Ah, eto pa nga pala... Friday and Saturday nights, I dreamed of my ex in a non-threatening manner. Which is really really weird. I am a little...perplexed. And VERY tempted not to give it any thought. But growing up as I did given the way I am (past experiences nonwithstanding), I have learned NEVER to ignore my dreams.
Haaayyy...ang daldal ko no?
Sana matapos ko na yung Kines. Ang dami ko pang tatapusin, actually. Haaayy...ewan ko ba. Weird talaga. Auditory-distractible kasi ako so I find it hard to study pag may kahit konting ingay...pwera pag music. At dapat yun, pure music...as in music lang. Dapat minimal lang ang "speaking" noise, so that immediately strikes Starbucks Rob and Starbucks La Salle out. Ang ingay ingay dun, grabe! Sa Rob, andaming jologs. Sa La Salle naman, puro conio talk. Eitherway, ingay. Pwede pa sa Starbucks UN kasi medyo quiet ang atmosphere dun, kahit sa labas. Dumadaan lang dun, cars and trucks and an occasional ambulance papuntang MaDocs. Masaya sana mag-aral dun kung may kasama ako. Isama ko kaya siya...kaya lang gabi na yun. Mag-aalala nanaman ako sa pag-uwi niya. Wag na lang. Solo flight na lang ako.
I only have six weeks! Six weeks to finish my clearance. Six months to get my TOR and COG. Six weeks to apply at PRC for Boards. Six weeks to finish studying. Six weeks to make sure I assimilate every bit of information my poor neurons can hold.
Six more weeks of hell. Six more weeks till Judgement Day.
So, in six weeks, will I be a PRTP or a PTPP (PT Pul-pol hehehe...or PT Palpak)?!?
Probe Team Commentary ulit: Ang kulit talaga ni Love! Nilibre kasi sila sa pamasahe sa jeepney nung driver...so in return, nag-barker sila. Ang funny talaga! Sina Che-che, binigyan ng 50-cents discount nung driver ng nasakyan nila. Tapos nagbenta sila ng ice cream sa Project 2. Hindi pa marunong mag-scoop ng ice cream sila Cheche at Bernadette. Pero oks lang...si Love ang kapal talaga ng mukha! Nakakatuwa! Si Bernadette naman, kilala kaya maraming bumibili sa kanila. Sina Cheche din, kilala kaya may bumibili din. And saya ng mga gimik nila. Yung team ni Bernadette (Love Team), nag-stay in one place lang parang nung sa Taho Challenge. Kaya ayun, dinumog sila. Young and old alike. Kasi kilala nga si Bernadette kaya madaming bumibili sa kanila kahit hindi sila marunong maglagay ng ice cream sa cone. Team Sugod naman (Team ni Love), swerte kasi nakapunta sila sa isang place na gala ang mga bata. So andami ding bumibili. Tapos "Extortion" naman ang ginamit ni Love sa mga matatanda habang bumibili ng cones si Eliza. Sina Bernadette naman, in-offer-an sila ng isang karinderya na kumain dun nang walang bayad. Nahihiya pa nga si RObert nung una, kaso gutom din so kumain na rin siya.
Before ako magkuwento pa, dapat kasi, yung kikitain nila sa taho at ice cream challenge lang yung pwede nila gastusin kaya malaking bagay sa kanila na libre! Gets? Owki...tuloy...
May mga naawa din kina Love. Tapos sina Cheche, binentahan yung mga officemates nila sa Anonas Extension. Tapos nung naubos na yung cones nila at kumain sila, pina-ubos na nila sa ibang tao yung tirang ice cream. They earned 50 pesos additonal to their 1,930.60 Shempre bawas na dun yung pamasahe nila, yung pinambili nila ng cones at yung pinang-lunch nila. Nasira yung gulong ng cart nila Bernadette kaya sinakay na nila sa isang pick-up (which is not bawal naman) tapos pumirmi sa isang site tapos nagbenta sa terminal ng jeep. They made 2,004.75 from the ice cream. Team Sugod (Love's team) made 1,685 bucks. And they came in last. ANG FUN nito, sobra!
Eniwei, Manila Bay, ang tagal ko nang hindi nakakapag-row! Ni hindi nga ako makapag-gym! Ang taba ko na! Hindi na kasya sa akin yung iba kong clothes! Lalo na yung mga jeans ko! There was even a time na jogging pants at shirts na lang ang nasusuot ko dahil sobrang laki ng na-gain ko na weight! At my height, I reached 118 pounds. Ngyi...pretty traumatic when my usual weight is 105-108 lbs. Hehehe...
'By and I are planning to go swimming on Saturday, most probably in the afternoon. Kasi I have classes pa rin in the morning. Nice sana kung matuloy kami. At least, QT yun...plus makaka-work out kami together. We both get to lose weight! Siya din kailangan pumayat! Laki na ng tummy niya eh...Hihihi (Sorry Baby...totoo naman e!)
Probe Team Commentary once more: Love Team won a visit to Discovery Spa...wow...inggit ako. Love Team got a free ride to Ortigas, along with Team Extreme (Cheche's team)...all thanks to Bernadette! Ang lakas talaga ng charisma ni Bernadette! Hehehe! Sina Love naman, nag-barker nanaman sa bus kasi libre naman sila sa pamasahe. Pwede na sila mag-sideline ng barker! Hwahahaha! Tapos na nga yung challenge, puro pagbebenta pa rin ang napag-usapan nila. Sabi ni Cheche, mukha na daw silang pera! Sobrang tuwang-tuwa sila na sa Discovery Suites sila matutulog. Akala daw nila, sa barracks ng Camp Aguinaldo! Hehehe...
So anyway, they had to sell halo-halo naman in Marikina. Bawal na daw ang libre. They have to pay for everything na. Meaning, no more free rides and no more free lunches. Wahahaha.
So this time, they had to get to The Biggest Shoe in Marikina. Love's Team (Team Sugod) got there first and won 50 bucks extra...and they had to get their stuff and start selling at Freedom Park. And the fun continues next Tuesday night.
Hayun... with Probe Team over, I shall return to my "other" thoughts. Is there a possibility that, 9 months after my last relationship (and 5 months after his) I have found someone who will be The One.
I really don't believe in The One...as in like, may isang tao na talagang para sa iyo at kahit anong kabalbalan ang gawin mo, kahit anong kagaguhan ang ipataw mo sa kanya...siya at siya pa rin ang makakatuluyan mo. I don't like the idea. I don't like the thought of having even my future partner predestined. Ayoko nun...parang napaka-controlled. Parang wala akong say, wala akong choice. But to some extent, I believe that that there are some people you are MEANT to meet. How it turns out is up to you. Yun ang pagkakaiba sa The One theory.
Let me put it plainly. I was meant to meet (and hook up) with Alain. But it was up to me if I wanted a relationship to form and it was up to me (or to us) if I (or we) wanted it to flourish. Parang ganun. The people we meet are scheduled...parang manifesto ng passengers sa plane or sa ship. Depende na sa akin kung anong gagawin ko dun sa mga pasaherong sasakay sa buhay ko. Gets?
Whateyber, Lucifer! Basta ako inaantok...at shempre kinakabahan sa Boards. I tried answering some past Boards questions. My God! I got only 40% in my first try...Anatomy and Kinesiology pa lang yun ha! Hello! I need 70% to even get a SHOT at passing...huhuhu. Natatakot na talaga ako, to put it plainly. Natatakot ako sa possibility na hindi ko matatapos aralin lahat. Or matapos ko nga pero low retention level naman ako.
At natatakot ako na baka kailangan ko muna siya i-ignore for the next six weeks. Well, hindi naman "ignore" in the strictest sense. "Ignore" lang na tipong hindi ko siya masyadong maasikaso, baka hindi ko na siya masyadong maipagluto ng food niya sa house...or hindi kami masyadong magkikita. Scary gamble din yun...gusto pa naman namin lagi kaming nagkikita... Oh hell, I hate to even THINK about the possibilities I must consider with this sort of set-up. A-Y-O-K-O!!!
Haaayy...baka mag-aral na lang ako sa Starbucks UN bukas ng gabi...solo flight muna ako. Ig-glue ko muna yung pwet ko sa silya. Sana tahimik yung mga makatabi ko...at sana sa loob ako. Ayoko sa smoking area...baka ma-tempt ako magyosi ulit...hehehe...kape pa naman yun. Nicotine and caffeine go SO well together!
Anyway, sil 'vous plait (ano ba yan! Kung anu-ano na!), I gotta catch my Z's. 7 am ang class ko bukas tapos half-day nanaman sa Pedia. Sana mapapirma ko na lahat ng pwedeng mapa-pirma sa clearance ko, para menos sa mga aasikasuhin ko. Dapat maka-apply na ako sa PRC by next week eh. Oh hell...
Yun lang! Goodnight! Laters!
Ah hell...I miss him...
Song of the Moment: Crash Into Me - Dave Matthews Band
To quote: You've got your ball, you've got your chain. Tied to me tight, TIE ME UP AGAIN!
In short- itali mo pa ako ulit! It is not my desire na ma-untie from you. Tangina ang corny! I need coffee...and fast!
Random Thought of the Day: Passing the Boards would be one hell of an achievement. To Top the Boards would be PHENOMENAL. Now, do I go for the achievement or do I deign to give the phenomenon a chance? Or the better question would be: am I WILLING, am I READY to make the necessary sacrifices to achive that phenomenon? And if I am ready, if I am willing... is he?
Most Coveted Possession of the Day: A Top slot in the August 2003 Boards...and shopping money! So I can buy all the clothes I want for him...hehehe (conrol freak mode ON)!
Word/s for the Day: "Nakakatuwa!"